Jump Out of Your Boat
by Ayana Menorca
Let me tell you a story of how God taught me to jump out of my boat.
I have always been the type of person that likes to know where I am going, where things are, where I will be going next week, next month or even next year . Yup, I like to plan and organise things waaaay in advance! I’m the type that likes certainty.
So, UNCERTAINTY and I = do not mix.
If I could remove any word from the dictionary that would be the word: UNCERTAINTY.
From a young age, I was blessed with amazing parents who have really encouraged and supported me to follow what my heart tells me to do. The problem with me was that, before doing anything I’d like to see where the end point is. I would not do something if I have not thoroughly deciphered where it would take me.
Imagine this: if you told me to go to ‘point Z’, I would have to first assess where ‘point Z’ is, what will happen when I get to ‘point Z’ and how I will get to ‘point Z’ from ‘point A’ to ‘B’ to ‘C’ to ‘D’, you get the picture right? I am that pedantic! I don’t like the feeling of uncertainty when I know that I am about to step into a foreign territory. But deep inside I know that one day, I would have to face this issue, and exactly around this time last year, I faced the most dreaded uncertainty.
A year ago, I felt like I was stuck in stagnant waters, nothing wrong with that right? Stagnant waters mean comfortable, still and not chaotic. However, my heart said otherwise. Deep inside I knew I was faced with a decision to move out of stagnancy and move into a new season. For months, I have tried to convince myself that where I was situated was okay because I was afraid of uncertainty. My fear immobilized me that I literally felt like I was drowning.
Until one night, I couldn’t take it anymore. I was overwhelmed by fear that it made me cry out to God for help. Instantly, in that moment I felt God’s presence. And that was when God reminded me of the story when Jesus asked Peter to jump out of the boat and walk into the stormy waters (Matthew 14:22-32).
“But Jesus immediately said to them:
“Take courage! It is I. Do not be afraid.”
- Matthew 14:27
When Peter got out of the boat to walk to Jesus, he suddenly began sinking as soon as he felt fear. Jesus then confronted Peter of his little faith and asked him why he doubted Jesus.
That story really spoke to me. I started repenting to God for not having enough faith in Him. I was consumed by my fear of uncertainty that I lost sight of who God was.
God never wanted us in stagnant waters, and in order for us to move out of that place, we must face the waves and the stormy waters. That night, God reminded me of my life and how He had actually helped me face many uncertainties in life. A huge example was when my family took a leap of faith 10 years ago to move to New Zealand, not knowing where God would take us.
Through this experience, God made me realize that life is full of uncertainties. It is inevitable and normal to encounter them. However, if there is something certain in our lives, that would be the presence of God. He will always be there with us through every step of the way.
My prayer is for each and every one of us to become an epitome of a surrendered spirit. I pray for us to be a generation of faithful spiritual warriors who are not fearful to jump out of our boats to face the stormy waters and trust God.
Nowadays, I find myself excited to receive what God has in store for me.
When you pass through the waters I will be with you.
And when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
- Isaiah 43:2
So next time you find yourself faced with uncertainty, remember that God will certainly be there with you in your journey. Let go of your doubts, have faith and jump out of your boat.
about the author
Hi my name is Ayana. I love God, my family, food, dancing and reading books. I like watching a good K-drama after a long day at work and I am God's work in progress to be a Proverbs 31 woman.